Mother's Day re-post: Empty Arms

I would like to take a moment to wish a happy mothers day to all those who have as yet been robbed of the chance to call themselves a Mom, despite their deep desires and instincts for this title.

That simple word resonates and cuts deep into me on this day, even as I appreciate all of the others mothers in the world. The emptiness echoes every time another pregnancy is announced or another person asks "So when are you two having kids?"...I try to keep it to myself but sometimes it seeps out and builds up a bitterness and a bright green envy...

Here is the poem I wrote and posted on here last spring... just thought it deserved a re-post...

So easy, so simple

Just hold and let go

Wait 3 and check

Vertical or horizontal

Then into the basket

So easy, so simple

So easy, so simple

Cliche commercials

Just a few seconds

Everything changes...

Or nothing does...

So easy, so simple

Let down disappointment

Useless, hopeless,empty

Rock-a-bye silence

Reminders everywhere

Anything but easy

Scared and alone

Terror in a $10 box

Don't judge me, don't leave me

Take on or give away

Anything but simple

So easy, so simple

Little manufactured play house

Just like Mommy

Wound up doll cries and laughs

Plastic childhood dreams

So easy, so simple

A single, quiet tear

Slides down her cheek

A single, quiet tear

Torn from his heart

Slowly breaking down

Confidence and hope

Leaves bitterness and pain

And one lingering question

Why them, not me?