Silent Unrest

Here I lie, the darkness so close that I cannot find peace
Eyes wide open as though it were daybreak

But the sun has gone and silence haunts my soul
As my mind runs laps inside my aching skull
My heart pounding inside this weary chest
Every breath, a grim reminder of past and future
Staring back at me

Will morning come or will night prevail?
I cannot bear to look

I -- ignored, insignificant, invalid

Don't you see me?
Crying out from under
Layer on layer of icy snow
Cold, heavy and deep
Piercing screams from a place
Where nothing is shining
No sun, no light
Held down, almost crushed
Suffocating within
Can't you feel me?
Touching your face
Scraping the skin
Using every muscle, every effort
Vying for your attention
Just a glance, your love
Craving, wanting, yearning
Pressure is overwhelming
Torn like a rope, tug of war
Each strand takes its turn
Tearing, shredding, disappearing
Into the night, into the dark, into the cold
Ice and snow... Screaming and weeping
Eclipsed, empty and barren
My cotton throat raw and hollow,
Voided soul, vacant mind is blank

Then silence