Thankful - Day Three

Today I am thankful for things unseen

So many beautiful things above you are missed
while you're busy looking down

Thankful - Day Two

Today I am thankful for family

Floating up above the world
Or falling down below
Emptiness around you
Feeling lost and alone
Unsure, shaken ground
Hurt, offended, broken.

A hand outstretched in love
To pull you back to earth
Support from every side
So you cannot fall too deep
Something to hold onto
Never letting go
Even when our bodies part
Together, one in soul

Thankful - Day One

Today I am thankful for mornings...

I do not recall yesterday unless forced
Only the new day, the fresh air
Possibilities and second chances
Bright white skies outside a window
Where only hours ago darkness shone
Cool warm mist like a shower
Washing away the mistakes and regrets
A choice to change my life today
For tomorrow's morning is unsure
In all its wide eyed glory
Morning may not wake
When next my eyes have closed
So for now I am thankful
Simply for today's morning

To Write Love On Her Arms Day

Among the scars a vine of hope grows precious jewels, symbols of new life and love

Lyrics to one of "Our Songs"

"Diamonds And Coal" by Incubus

If it's good to complicate then both of us are doing fine.
Just keep your eyes on your part and leave me alone to mine.
If it's good to instigate, we're a fast horse, bet on us.
I'm not calling you an animal; I think we just fight too much.

Hey now, in spite of this we're doing just fine
Even diamonds start as coal.
Give us time to shine,
Even diamonds start as coal.

We're both aligned in frame of mind
But circumstance got us good.
And now you're seeing a side of me
I wish no one ever would.
Yeah, if it's right to pick a fight, we're
Fingers in a sugar bowl.
Love isn't perfect, even diamonds start as coal.

Come on, in spite of this we're doing just fine
Even diamonds start as coal.
Give us time to shine,
Even diamonds start as coal.
We're incomplete and infantine
Even diamonds start as coal.

Give it time, the fire feels divine
The sweetest things, they burn before they shine.
We think way too much,
Look at us losing touch!
A promise is a promise until...

Yeah in spite of this we're doing just fine
Even diamonds start as coal.
Give us time to shine,
Even diamonds start as coal.
We're incomplete and infantine
Even diamonds start as coal.

Catawampus

Held in a constant state of holding,
A cold tear rolls down into the corner of a smile,
Heart is pounding while my soul is laughing,
Even in morning, the darkness is here,
Where sunrise and sunset exchanged,
Torn and bleeding, gaping gashes,
Turning into new, ripe skin, ready and willing...

A silver medal in going for the gold,
Turning the corner, to find a culdesac,
Mind over matter, but what mind matters?
Blurry static memory, if only,
Failure to fail, a constant reminder,
Step up to the plate and splinter the bat,
Take up and run but fall through the cracks,
Where is here and there is where?
I cannot see, smoke stings my eyes,
Finally open, only cobwebs and dust,
Nothing, no one, echoes of voices,
But only my own, muffled and coarse,
Here I am, but where are you?
Eternally... YOU, THEY, THEM...
Here I am... but am I here?

Insomnia 101

The dark, heavy blur washes over,

Cackling hideousness,

My ears bleed with voices,

Reality or panic, truth or disease?

Silence... what a precious gem,

A peace like no other,

My eyes burn with barren tears,

Sanity an illusion, black & white or color?

Only louder, blacker, deeper,

Endless as the sea,

My soul gasps for breath,

Surface or submerge, midnight or dawn?

Merry go round in circles,

It stops but I'm still spinning,

My head hits the pillow,

Wide awake & dreaming, goodnight or goodbye?